Brothers and sisters, the testimony and first death of Ade. When I came here, I had no future, no purpose no plans, nothing. I was a walking husk. That is until i met our Lord. He took this empty worthless life and gave it purpose, I now know that my essence is to service him, to dedicate my very being to his magnificence and grace. In that, I have meaning.In that I am complete.

When it first got out that I cut myself, the question I got asked the most was why. My parents, my friends—none of them could understand it. Why would you do something that physically harmed you over and over? Didn’t you feel the pain? Well, of course it hurts. That’s why I do it. I do it because sometimes it seems like pain is the only way I can feel anything.

I wish I could remember like it was yesterday, all I really remember are flashes, flashes of the most horrible moments of my life. I’d just finished evening lessons and I had to go back home, it was the same old routine, I’d done this for about three years, pick my little sister and take the A11 bus back home .On the way back we’d meet Brad, he’s this guy from the prep school next to mine that I’ve been dating for a while.